Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Talking to the moon
This is one of those times when i'm facing a familiar issue, again i don't want to get into it but again i find myself falling into it. I really don't like the feeling of uncertainty and then they tell me to have faith, if they only knew what i'm uncertain of and what the situation really is. For this however i feel i can only say nothing to no one, only between me and God and somehow i feel its enough. We all go through our own normal lives, i said it myself, whether we fall in love or out of love, whether we get that job or we get fired, the world around us still goes on, injury or not, the world moves on, the birds are still flying, the fishes are still swimming and God is still good. Its a pain i've to bear for now, i know that on some level i'm doing the right thing by not saying anything, it'll be a secret, one i fear may reflect in my actions and so as much as it further pains me i shall be indifferent. Objective. If i could you know i would, i just don't really know what to do or why or really just why, what's the reason behind this?
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10:21 AM;
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Lets go to Narnia (and this post is, FOR NARNIA!!!!!)
I don't like this feeling because it sucks. (Duh) At this point i really wish i could go to Narnia. Seeing as people tell me i pretty much belong there. I wish i knew where this was headed and what's on everyone's mind. So i'd know what to do and what not to do. Because once more i feel like i'm being held out on. I miss the days where i didn't read so much into everything, because back then everything was just so much less complicated. Now its like i'm overcomplicating things and me not likey it. While part of me is saying no the other part is saying go and then there's a small part that says why not just stay where you are cause it took you so damn long to get here, must we start chasing butterflies again? The ever elusive butterfly. I thank Bruno Mars for the song Just The Way You Are, cause it speaks volumes and the song Nothing on You. Cause yeah. What i'm trying to say i dun really know but maybe when you find My Narnia you'll finally understand, funny thing is i'm actually wondering if i can let you in. Don't disappoint me.
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12:25 AM;
