I was browsing through my facebook photos just now, haven't done so in a while, personally speaking i haven't really spent much time in facebook, i can't and don't want to lie so i'll be real and honest here, it hurts for me to spend time there because i don't want to view and at the same time i'm reminded of what happened. So lets back track 4 months ago, i created an album with the photos i took at an animal shelter where i met a cat, a kitten named Eaglet. Little did i know that kitten was me, trapped in a cage full of energy not knowing why i was in that cage, not knowing how come i was abandoned, rejected, yet liking it. Its funny that it should come full circle 2day. In disciple class mum mentioned something about me being rebuked at 1 month. It hurt, no kidding, really cut me, would've left too i guess, why i stayed i dun really know, maybe on some level i really wanted to be more serious about my walk with God. The other reasons i dun really wanna state them here, but yeah. Then mum started to tell me i'm meant to soar, to be independent, like an eagle and to be self sufficient, "throwing me into the shark pool" the most independent creatures i know are cats. Funny that the one that would make me remember her so much would be the one called Eaglet, the one that tried her hardest to get my attention... 2 months later i joined CMC. It never occurred to me till 2day. Kinda puts God in a bigger light no? That cat was trapped in a cage, abandoned, i wanted to bring her home, so badly. Just like how i was trapped in my own life and God wanted to grant me a free life. In my case i couldn't because i already have 3 cats at home and didn't trust they wouldn't fight, in God's case for me, i kinda didn't realise, like Eaglet, i thought i was living it up there in the cage, i had a 3 storey cage to myself. I thought it was the life, i was safe. In this discomfort that i feel, i know i'm growing, i'm seeing new things and i know that this novelty with God will never end, my Father will never cease to amaze me, to knock me off my feet in a good sense and to show me His power and glory. I haven't even started to do my QT and He's already spoken to me. That's love right there.
thought @ 12:06 AM;
Friday, October 1, 2010
Angel
Living it up on high above
Floating down on wings of doves
Bringing true and peaceful joy
Animosity she came to destroy
Tension dissipates the moment you enter
The air lays still as i'm caught in your rapture
Finding it hard to breathe all of a sudden
A true love's meaning of a heart so ardent
A price to pay, you clipped your wings
In exchange your life fulfilled to bring
Each and everyday a fight for her heart
A raging war on each of their part
To lay down my life for a cause so noble
To hold your hand as we admire the steeple
To be your knight in shining bright white armour
To stand with her in the face of disasters
With the dust around settling down
When no one else is around
Searching the battle field to see her angelic face
