Here I am Lord and I'm drowning In your sea of forgetfulness The chains of yesterday surround me I yearn for peace and rest I don't want to end up where you found me And it echoes in my mind Keeps me awake tonight
I know you've cast my sins as far As the East is from the West And I stand before you now As though I've never sinned but today I feel like I'm just one mistake away From you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me Just how far the East is from the West Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been Come rising up in me again In the arms of your mercy I find rest Cause you know just how far the East is from the West From one scar[r]ed hand to the other
I start the day the war begins Endless reminding of my sin Time and time again Your [T]ruth is drowned out by the storm I'm in Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away From you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me Just how far the East is from the West Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been Come rising up in me again In the arms of your mercy I find rest Cause you know just how far the East is from the West From one scar[r]ed hand to the other
I know you've washed me white Turned my darkness into light I need your peace to get me through To get me through this night I can't live by what I feel But by the truth your word reveals I'm not holding on to you But your holding on to me Your holding on to me
Jesus, you know just how far The East is from the West I don't have to see the man I've been Come rising up in me again In the arms of your mercy I find rest (The arms of your mercy I find rest) Cause you know just how far the East is from the West From one scar[r]ed hand to the other(x2)
I'm lucky to be here. I'm not lucky, i'm truly blessed and whenever i think about it i am humbled beyond words that a King, THE King of Kings laid His life down for me. So that i can live a life free from condemnation cause He doesn't condemn me, not once. We go through life sometimes doing things we don't wanna do, sometimes we make mistakes that we can't change, people wrong us or the other way round, it hurts and sometimes hurts doesn't even begin to describe how we feel. Jesus died on the cross for us so that we don't have to feel that, instead we feel liberation and we turn our face towards Him, only if we look to Him. I turned away and realized my mistake, like what i told Mum Serene, "i had enough of running away, i'm staying..." Don't run away from God, don't run away from love, don't run away from the truth, the beauty in it is that He was always there, all you gotta say is "I believe".
thought @ 11:03 PM;
Monday, August 2, 2010
I'll listen
I think the saying God answers prayers is really true, just that in my case He's really been answering them and i just keep asking for assurance after assurance and well basically defeating the purpose of faith in His coming through and so blocking out His voice, and well in that same light blocking God out as well. I felt the need to say this cause... well i just felt i had to say it, maybe to serve as a reminder to myself as well, it's not like i'm the best listener to God either and so i think its time for me to hear what He has to say, no matter how painful. I choose to see this pain as something good, whatever i have to go through is good and will prosper me, not just me but my children as well, i see it and will possess that destiny, just that i have to make sure that i'm deserving of that very destiny and that i don't forget the Awesome One who brought me there in the first place, God.
