In this whole process of growing up, in the last few years, i've been through a lot. Some self imposed, some i just had to go through, others i had to relearn and some i just had to forget. What i didn't realise was that i forgot one very important thing, to love. I forgot what it was like to care for someone to the point where you'd sacrifice sleep and energy knowing that you're not functioning at 100% physically and mentally to visit her in the early hours of the morning, the feeling of waking up in the morning with a bigger purpose than just simply waking up because you have to, the sky seeming clearer and brighter and my mind more constantly thinking. I lost all of that. Why am i saying all this? Simple. I lost myself because i was more proud of who i was back then than i am now and frankly speaking this guy here i do not like, i do not respect i do not want to continue and yet i found no reason not to. Until you. You brought me back hope i thought was condemned to a place i could never reach, gave me reason i thought i'd never see logic in and in terms of logic yes you did nothing and i could very well be lying to myself but once more i find myself standing at the edge of a cliff waiting to take that leap of faith when normally i'd be in the barren plains miles away from that same exact cliff. So all i'm asking from you now is a chance to let me live, not just as a you and me, but a us.
