I think i need to finish up my PI soon. So, once i'm more awake i'll go do it. Which means i'm gonna go sleep now. After i say that its been a long time since i was last here huh?
thought @ 11:13 PM;
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Update
Its gonna be childhood meets present day me when my grandma finally moves in with me, i gotta admit, i haven't been bloggin for the longest time cause i really felt it would've been better for me to hold certain things in me and let them stay there, as much as i'd hate to admit it i may have actually reached my breaking point, i found myself stoning in the library yesterday actually wondering abt some stuff and basically losing the passion for several others. Can't say this has been the smoothest transition i've had but with Mama lying in hospital on top of a heap full of crap that is supposedly "self-created" yes its taken a toll on me. Frankly speaking i just wanna fade away for now cause i don't think i'll be able to live up to the expectations that some people have placed on me, i never once tried to be superman, i'm far from that, all i've ever wanted to be was to be able to love freely. I've realised that i've been holding that back, for several reasons. So in case you're wondering, yes, i am, physically, mentally and spiritually broken up and the pieces are strewn so far around i have no idea which part to pick up 1st. Yet i know that out there i'm needed, so can i say that i won't be around for at least a while?
