Saturday, December 26, 2009
Christmas Spirit
This year's theme of Christmas for Hope Church is Hope. I attended At The Door yesterday and left without any hope cause of some issues that rose and frankly speaking after what happened the hype for Christmas just really wasn't there anymore and this year's Christmas was just feeling somehow somewhat like another day. Other than the fact i slept most of it away i just kinda didn't have the Christmas Spirit in me as much as i thought i did so i kinda just went through whatever else i had planned and learnt something. Hope, is hard to kill. Even if you think there's no hope, its cause you're not looking hard enough. I have a friend whose birthday falls on the 25th of Dec and frankly speaking he kinda lives a miserable life, basically its just sad. So he finally has his 18th b-day 2day and he invited me over, so i kinda reluctantly agreed cause it meant waking up "early", but i promised and i still went and what i saw there just made me smile, more than that it gave me hope, my friend was playing the piano for all his guests and one of them was his grandmother, its the 1st time i'm meeting his whole family but that didn't stop his grandmother from asking me if i was enjoying the music that he was playing, he's from Laselle btw, so more of wanting not to hurt her feelings i said, "yeap he's really good =)" it wasn't until i saw how focused she was on him playing and how she kept whispering to her other grandkids that made me realise for all the people that he lives with and "can't stand him" his grandmother was absolutely proud of him, she was proud of the fact that her grandson could play the piano and that he was performing for everyone whether they wanted to hear him play or not (it was the 3rd performance of the night and nothing changed) but she still loved every minute of it. How does that give me hope? Cause it made me realise my grandma's just like that, as a kid i'd randomly scribble some lines on a piece of paper show it to her and she'd praise it to high heaven, i'd do the same thing a million over times and irritate the hell out of her the whole day and she'd still praise it to high heavens and when i asked her which one was the best she said all and i know that she meant what she said cause she never stopped praising me for every little accomplishment i've made throughout the years and if i'm thankful for anything this Christmas i'm thankful of her. =)
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