Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Reflected
Its funny, i managed to get advanced into year 2 but the feelings of joy that i'm supposed to be feeling aren't really there, so in that sense i know how Derek and the rest of 08A3 felt when they saw me get CTE-ed and say goodbye to them. Gotta say, its harder than it seems. Turns out that you can't exactly tell anyone to leave because its for the best of them and not feel as though a part of you is dying inside. Last week's sermon was right, we WERE made for relationships and we WERE made to make them last. Saying goodbye to someone is like saying goodbye to a part of yourself, its never easy and it always hurts. As i walked around the school seeing the tear stained faces, the disappointment, the pleading and the occasional smiles of relief, i couldn't help but wonder where the hell was i last year when this happened and remembered i was somewhere having Derek and Faisal trying to tell me what exactly i should've done and should be doing and i kinda do thank them for that cause sincerely at that time i was thinking poly haha... if i had made that choice i have no idea where i'd be 2day. As for you guys out there, i just hope that everyone's ok, you know how to get me =) one call away.
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