Wednesday, August 12, 2009
When I grow up...
I met this dude who talked to me abt... well basically he reminded me of whatever i wanted to be as a guy, or more "appropriately" what i thought a "man" should be like. So it kinda sounded like wanting to be popular with all the girls, well not jut girls but guys as well, basically being well liked and simply adored by everyone, which in reality is somewhat possible, if you give them buckets of cash then maybe but niceness only gets you so far these days so i'll take what's been given and give back what i really should. Anyways, as he told me his story and how he felt about school and stuff like that i realized something, all that kinda stuff didn't matter to me anymore... I mean it was weird cause not so long ago i was something like that, everywhere i went, i wanted to be the best, not academically but in other ways and on many levels it was kinda eating at me, i aimed for perfection that meant nothing. I pretty much did most things i thought was "manly" i didn't dare show any emotion cause well its a stupid male ego thing, show too much emotion you're just giving too much away, i dun really know how to explain it but yeah, as i tried to figure out what i was really trying to be, God told me very simply and plainly, to follow Him. Just follow. Faithfully, FAITHFULLY. That's when it kinda struck me, you can find a man who's capable of loving anywhere. I can even find one living under a bridge. The only difference between a "man" and a man, is that a man is truly capable of not just simply loving, but love faithfully.
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11:03 PM;
