Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Make it never break it
Ok looking at my results i'm not gonna say they're anything fantastic, they're super far from it. I'm literally at the brink of being CTE-ed again cause i wasn't serious about my promos 1. Mr Ang was kinda right i guess, none of us esp me should be looking at this short term, just to promote, we should all be thinking long term. Eyes on the prize, the 'A' levels. Truth be told i'm freaking out about my results haha... i remember telling Benjamin yesterday, i don't care how long it takes, i just wanna get there. Thing is, i don't have the time anymore. I've got something to prove. To myself. In retrospect i guess i should've just studied last year and promoted instead of messing around and yeah they weren't kidding when they said 'A' levels is the hardest course we'd ever have to go through in any education system. I'm living that reality now and i made the bad decision to not live by that and chose to prove this saying wrong cause well yeah, i'ma admit it, my ego got in the way. A year on and with the saving grace of God who gave me wisdom and allowing me to remember His love for me i don't wanna mess around anymore. I know its not gonna be easy but i guess the only thing i can do is to suck it up and go through with it no matter how crappy it feels. It ain't just for me no more. I'm done living for myself. No sacrifice that i make is too great for them. I'll stand by that.
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