Was looking for the video but couldn't find a way to embed it, so click here its really cute, really
thought @ 5:54 PM;
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Frisbee
This is for the sole purpose of reminding myself why i even play frisbee and why i'm "giving" back to the sport, the one that majority think isn't even one and that its not possible for it to be difficult. First time i ever picked a disc up, in MI to be precise was cause of Lydia. In fact, Danny, Kah Leong and Eleen picked it up cause of Lydia. As i started out playing i had each and every intention of taking frisbee as a leisure sport. Then came along my shin injury, sidelining me on and off and then i had to stop rugby. I ain't here to make excuses so i'll come clean and say i stopped cause i was scared as hell, scared that if that one wrong tackle or dive would splinter my shin so nicely it would lead me to a life in a comfortable wheelchair. Worst nightmare. I still wasn't playing Frisbee properly much like what my juniors are doing to me now and yeah i guess i can somewhat relate to what James, Anna and the rest felt but though i'm not here to compare myself to them, i can safely say that i at the very least gave my best and broke each and every limit cause i appreciated what my captains were doing for me, sacrificing study time to prepare us for each and every competition. Looking back its funny cause in a way frisbee kinda saved me once again. Brought me to Christ once more and lit that fire that died out so long ago. Taught me responsibility, something i mistook for haughtiness and making sure i had my own fun. Thats the key thing. I push past every limit for everything frisbee has given me. That's this year's Teengames' slogan right? Breaking Limits.
Yesterday, "my team" walked out on me. 5 members stayed behind and out of these 5, 3 were willing to train. This is out of a team of 10. I had just half of them stay back to improve on their throws because they knew they had to and maybe even because they respected me enough to stay back and attempt to help me work on my own throws as well. I'm not gonna lie, i wanted right there and then to walk out on MI Ultimate. I wouldn't mind just not talking to them as well cause i felt, at the very least they didn't respect me as a "captain", much less a friend. If anything i'll make it clear now, i'm sick of talking. Competition's Saturday. I'm a VERY FREE person, who has NOTHING ELSE to do, i held training cause i had nothing else better to and wanted to waste all your time. Lets just leave it as that.
thought @ 7:56 PM;
Friday, May 22, 2009
I really really wanna go back to being a kid where responsibility meant eating dinner, taking my shower b4 i slept and having to pull the mattress out on the floor so i'd have a place to sleep on the floor. Now its just all so warped to the point where i don't even like it anymore. I don't even feel i belong anywhere and as far as my studies go i'm beginning to think NS would be a better choice... I know i've been skipping math and history like crazy i still dun really see much of a point in staying in lessons that i don't understand... don't get me wrong i do wanna pass them but consultation is gonna leave me way more drained than anything i could ever imagine.... Guess there's pretty much just one thing to do, Hustle and move on
I remember someone asking me once, how does it feel like to be this lonely, to know that on that crazy place where you stand that seems to be just you and you alone, how does it really feel? The answer is simple,liberating, just so you don't have to go there.
thought @ 12:07 AM;
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Oh damn.... 1st public performance 2mw.... i so seriously need my sleep and yes i'm totally stressing out.... hope the song choice is right and that i dun lose my voice 2mw haha....
thought @ 12:51 AM;
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Injury-rod
I figured with the economy so bad, its really gonna suck if ppl fall sick, then comes along the whole H1N1 virus strain and sooner or later people are gonna be thrown into chaos, to the point where i dun even wanna think abt. Anyways, people around me are not falling sick, with the exception of Shafiqah and Josh. Sam walked into a wall, how i still dunno, Derek that idiot sprained his ankle and i've to bring crutches for him 2mw, i sprained my ankle as well just that i'm gonna "walk it off" cause i can =) i tink its cause of the 2.4 run that it throbs a lil now, that and probably Frisbee training as well so yeah, where's the injury-rod when you need one man....
For the times that i catch myself thinking of you, i do my best not to but then i end up dreaming of you and thats so much sweeter
thought @ 11:36 PM;
Friday, May 1, 2009
I made a decision 2day. It was a very selfish one and i wish i didn't have to do it. I could've chosen not to do it but i did. Randy, Tab, Dawn, Danny and Kah Leong, i'm really really very very truly sorry.... Marcus... thanks...
