As i'm waiting for the indemnity forms to be printed out i find myself wondering how and why the hell am i in this situation where i'm supposed to do all this. Its amazing enough that i've managed to find 4 more people to help out play Teengames. I have no idea how i'm gonna pull a miracle out from this haha i know the old adage is keep believing and keep hustlin' but i've been doing that the whole time and truth be told i need someone to take the reigns for a while, just for a lil bit so i can catch my breath and focus on stuff that require my attention as well... The reason why i haven't been blogging as much is cause i find myself wondering if i should really expose to the rest of the world how i really feel, somewhere along the line i find myself picking up the persona of the steel wall, the one everyone can depend on. Yet after Saturday's incident i really ask myself is it worth it? Its funny cause it already has reached a point where i don't care so much about what i feel and place the wants and needs of others before what i actually require; brushing off the advice of the people who really care in the process, now i'm suffering the blunt of it all while the rest of the world waltzes around. Somehow i tink its time for me to really reflect and turn to God, something i haven't done in a very long time which shouldn't be the case at all...
