Saturday, March 28, 2009
Simply because its been a long ass time since i was last here to update i shall do just that. School has been hell for me and really ironically enough it just gets more and more difficult without the exams haha made my decision to go back to rugby and yeah realised that i'm more outta touch than i ever thought so i'm back to square one where i'm still learning a proper pop which really sucks but again i'll suck it up and learn. I guess most of you must be wondering why the hell am i going back and its simply cause i miss the game. I know i chose to come back at a really shitty time but i'm glad that i managed to come back in the end. I'm nt some natural talent like some of the new pre-u 1's are but i'm willing to work my ass off again just to be where i was so long ago. All in my stride. Right now, i'm loving life, i'm getting by, Hafidz i'm not emo just tired, i still don't like people calling me Kenny Benny and this is about all the time i can spend on writing this nonsensical post, and i'm glad i did it cause there's just still so much to say but so little or no, time in fact.
Dude you were so totally right haha oh well, shit happens.
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Thursday, March 19, 2009
This is my stupid,dumb,irritating,noisy,looks-like-a-mop dog, Benn Benn. He was supposed to be called Peanut cause he'd be cuter and more aggressive if he was called Peanut. In any case, the reason for this random post is cause i find it somewhat cool yet sad that he's the only living thing in my house that's happy to see me home irregardless of how lousy his day was. So yeah. I still love my dumb dog =)
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
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Monday, March 16, 2009
Lace up?
Hmmm i know i've said it b4 so yeah i'm really gonna consider the whole aspect of returning to rugby so yeah. I've got countless requests nt to go back though... Talked to coach on Friday, said he'd take me back in but was reluctant when i told him abt why i left in the 1st place. I think rehab was somehow somewhat enough? Suddenly all of a sudden i dun really feel that confident abt it? The way i see it i've got 1 more week, since i'm not going for trainings during the hols as well so yeah...
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Drifting
Its hard really to try and meet each other on some level. Maybe i'm just scared of what i would say that she might not wanna hear those very few words that i wanna say and that it could be a possibility that i don't want to hear them as well. Cause for some reason it hurts to even look at you and i just don't know why anymore. I'm not even sure if its from disappointment or just plain sadness and every single thing seems so damn forced, to the point that i don't even wanna continue doing anything else anymore that i just wanna disappear from existence itself. I find myself dreading everything but there's not a damn thing i can do about it because all anyone ever tells me is relax luh. I so need an escape now...
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11:34 PM;
Monday, March 9, 2009
Leg, no back injury?
I'm still laughing abt this cause its so freaking funny, i played hopscotch 2day and sprained my ankle hahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Somehow i find that the more easier sports i play the more injuries i get HAHAHAHA i dun think i'm doing PE on wednesday lol
fast forward to now, i just got back from the chinese physician and he attributed it to a back injury and said it was an old one. So he jabbed needles into "strategic" points in my leg and my back and at this point i'm still laughing till the doc ran a freaking current through my leg while asking if i could feel the tingling sensation in my leg all the way to my toes. I didn't scream as i thought i would but i do remember struggling to say yes i can feel the pain. One of the more stupid things i've ever had to do. Right now i'm still figuring out the link btwn back and leg... but i sure as hell hope i can walk 2mw without limping man hahahahahaha
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10:50 PM;
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Back to the past
Its weird cause ultimately when i get a more severe and serious injury its the weirdest time to even think of it and it kinda swung home to be at the precise moment it hurt the most in my ribs that i actually really miss playing Rugby. Don't get me wrong, not touch rug but contact. Even though the stamina training is hell and probably still is gonna be hell for me and most of the people don't really wanna see me back cause they probably deem me as a quitter same goes for the coach, i miss the game more than anything else. I know i can't throw as well as i used to in the past but i find myself picking up that old rugby ball that i have and tossing it around and remembering the rush of adrenaline when i step on the field, what made me give my everything even though i was tired and hurt in every single fiber of my body. When i was out with injury i never really made any plans of returning i thought it was it, i'm done. No more rugby but now i find myself missing it more than ever. I don't know if the coach would let me back in though haha much less Mr Tan. The risk of me cracking or this time even splitting my shin cleanly into half is there and with my ribs yeah thats another story. Its really screaming at me, just right in my ear to go back, though you won't be the best yet you can always strive to be the best that you are and sometimes thats all it really takes. Maybe i've got the holidays to think over it? What do you guys think?
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7:14 PM;
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Sports Fiesta
These days i've no idea how to update my blog, i see her and i feel something yet i don't know how to even talk to her when i know that she doesn't wanna talk to me, all the things i've said to assure myself of what we once shared made worse by what i see and really feel. SO. I've already decided, not gonna care anymore, cause for the simple reason that you don't =)
Now that Sports Fiesta is over i'm really glad cause it frees up most of my time haha this whole week has literally been hell and it hasn't really been a lonely road, i'm still really glad to have T4 being so understanding and not asking much from me cept to take care of myself and rest well =) You guys really truly make me see what great friends should be like =) Bruised my ribs so yeah didn't go for the Milo thingy 2day cause i couldn't move which is kinda funny actually haha i've been moving so much that when it hits the weekend i can't move at all, i've only just managed to drag myself out of bed and it hurts like hell, the bandage makes it a lil easier to breathe so thank God for that =) Hopefully it'll a whole lot better 2mw man i really really wanna go back to church its been like forever since i last went to church =(
SPC you guys rock =) though we didn't get to play Bossaball in the end we still saw it through and yeah we can finally rest easy and well =)
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1:24 PM;
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Ok now that the proposals for MI Carnivals are done i'm still left with the articles... by the 11th i tink... add math, econs and lit on top you get a pretty lil stack. But its cool i guess better than stoning and not doing anything no? Mum got me a new bag, in my opinion its questionable, but i dun wanna hurt her feelings cause she still bought it for me anyways and in this case i tink its more of the thought that counts? Plus its in black and white, simple enough so yeah. There's the MI Roadshow for SportOn 2mw impatient ppl can come check out the site i placed it at my links, if you're lazy you can do it hereSport On so yeah go there and place your votes for the SportOn Sport Ambassador, pretty prestigious title if you ask me haha so yeah go there and check it out =)
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10:38 PM;
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Sport On Youth Alliance
This has been like a frigging stressful week for me, irony is that its the weekend... I seriously need sleep but i've to rush out some proposal that i can't even complete and i've to do a report on some econs thing which is due 2mw i tink and i've got a math worksheet thats due 2mw and i dun have the frigging worksheet as well so that i'm pretty much screwed... 5 mins on i realise that i dun have Maths 2mw =D so yeah thats how stressed i am i forget what lessons i'm having the day after so that really sucks... which reminds me i've got PE 2mw... can't get any worse in my opinion... i so need sleep now and i've got a long ass day 2mw.... freaking hell...
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