Thursday, February 19, 2009
Bed 14
Its a certain feeling you get when you see someone jovial and laughing usually lying in a coma and knowing that the person's been in a coma for quite a while now, just that you never really got the chance to see him/her till 2day. For me, that day was today. Feeling wave after wave of different emotions wash over me from the time i stepped into the hospital till i left, it left me exhausted and seriously got me thinking real hard. Life really is unpredictable, if there's really nothing that we feel is worth living for then shouldn't we at least live by Faith? I always seem to remember that darkest moment and throwing everything to God and telling Him pleading with Him for his wisdom and mercy to guide me through and somehow He always does. The image of Auntie Dara lying there in the hospital is really depressing. It would be really inhuman not to feel even a tinge of sadness yet through all this i've found reason to celebrate, the people around me, life and so so much more. I was struck pretty hard when i found out i was drafted from Zircon to Sapphire, ironically enough, the highest and lowest points in the day came together, merging itself into some package and presenting itself to me in a way i could somehow comprehend, just at the right amount, but leaving a tinge of mystery behind it, never to be known, only to be guessed.
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10:54 PM;
