Friday, January 30, 2009
"Everytime i'm tempted to write a poem i somehow check myself and end up not doing that, then i see your angelic face and fight the urge again. I feel like i might someday lose myself and just scrawl one on your face." How's that for an opener to a girl you like? Or guy, whoever is reading this, i cater to the masses. (I hope)
The whole entrepreneur thing is really draining along with Frisbee practices and all that. If anyone wants to get to know me more, drop by the parade square or volleyball court and watch out for the flying plastic discs, thats where i'll probably be at throwing them and running after them.
Now the hype is that everyone's waiting for the new Pre-U 1's to come in, so i bet this is kinda how the seniors felt when my batch came in. Thinking of ways to "torture" the poor lil newbies and induct them into a school we call M.I? We're kind ppl, some. So yea, welcome to M.I whoever is reading this and is a new student and yea pls know that you are lucky to have good food in the canteen man...
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8:19 PM;
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Gong Xi, eh..... think of all the new year greetings that you can and put them here. thanks =)
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1:55 PM;
Saturday, January 24, 2009
I'm so so so damn tempted to crash and not wake up anymore. Not in the sense of drop dead but more of catching up on lost sleep? But i think that'll set me back a couple years, so strike that. Woke up to a fever this morning and then left for practice, bad decision? No not really but i knew i couldn't run or jump for nuts so i took a early break and found that upon reaching home i couldn't sleep so here i am bitching abt how bad a headache i have and how much i wanna sleep but can't.
On a brighter note, CNY is in 1 days time =) so that means drinking more water for me so that i can throw myself back into this state after the new year =) i don't care what you say, i'm not eating "healthy" during the new year.
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11:57 AM;
Thursday, January 22, 2009
The hike was... better than expected though i turned out to be sleepier than expected. I could actually do a whole dramatic writing on the trip but i think i'm just not in the mood for it. Wanna know ask someone else, yea i'm evil so bite me.
I think the retainees might not need to attend orientation. If that happens it'll be the worst thing ever, screw those who says orientation is a waste of time. Personally i think we need the freaking orientation, i don't see a need to separate us from the new Pre U 1's if there was a need, it'll probably be superbly redundant i think. Never really thought i'd find people who were 1, have totally no mind of their own and 2, really enjoying what a system has for them, esp since the system has been working against them since day 1 leading them to the current state they're in.
I don't feel like posting this but what the hell.
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4:09 PM;
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
I always love a good song. You know like those times when a song that plays on your mp3 that really describes what you're feeling or going through there and then. You start to congratulate yourself for having the foresight for putting the song in your playlist for an occasion such as this and you start to think about the song and soon enough, you find the song coming to an end, knowing that if its a negative feeling you know it'll come to an end soon and if its a good one you just don't want that song to end and you put it on repeat with the hopes that it'll turn out exactly like the beautiful ending of the song.
Right now its Motorhead - The Game, i have never loved rock so much.
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6:18 PM;
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Somehow i find myself in a position where i'm not allowed to live in the past, this like from here on, only the future matters and the future is what you get. What happened yesterday happened and it happened for a reason so that means i've gotta work on 2day so that 2mw can be better. I'm still somewhat sad Snowy's gone just like that, i'm still missing the loved ones that i had to say goodbye to. There are still so many regrets that i have that i can't reverse and make right. But reality is that i can't. We can't, all we can do is look forward to the future and hope that there's something better there for us. Yeah i admit its draggy and hell tiring and there'll be times when we'd wanna give up. We're only human and of course we'd wanna give up when we think we can't take it anymore. But whats the point in that? This past week has been filled with thoughts of leaving M.I hell, i was even thinking twice about wanting to leave SPC, something i've always wanted since stepping into M.I. I'm glad that my prayers were answered and i made my choice. Everyday is a choice. Be it a hard or easy one, we all have to make a choice. True i retained, true i can be emo abt it and mope around all day wondering why's life so unfair and everything. But its my choice that i don't want to. Whoever's reading this, you guys had a choice too, whether to read this post or not. Everything's a choice, its only a matter of whether you make the right one or not and with the right attitude, anything is possible.
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6:31 PM;
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Snowy died 2day. She died 5 mins after i got home. I guess she couldn't wait for Emily to reach home. I told her it was ok to go, that wherever she went she'd be taken care of. Her body was cold. After that she just stopped breathing. Her eyes and mouth were still open, she didn't have the strength to close her eyes anymore.
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8:39 PM;
Monday, January 12, 2009
I'm trying real hard not to think about it but at some point i tink we all have to. Death is definitely the word and thought most people try to avoid. In fact, its pretty common but we kinda forget about that cause we're so caught up in living and it seems so far away. I recieved a call from Mum saying she brought Snowy home after a trip to the vet, she hasn't been eating for the past week or so and we kinda had to hand feed her. Long story short, Snowy had a relapse of the previous cancer she had and is now gonna die. The entire time i was home i watched her slowly walk from one room to another taking breaks in between walks cause walking itself was too tiring for her. She's not really suffering so Mum thought it would be good to bring her home and let her find her own resting place, she's been doing that the entire day, when i came home her body was really cold but she's still moving around. Guess its times like these that you really think about life and more importantly death. This isn't the saddest thing i've seen or heard, there are worse cases out there and i'm still waiting to see if i can help. For Snowy i just wanna help her pass on as peacefully as possible and i realised whether or not i'm there it doesn't matter cause life's kinda like that sometimes, one moment you're here, the nxt you're not. Kinda wants to make you see the little things you thought you had and realise how much you've really got.
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9:48 PM;
Sunday, January 11, 2009
After spending one year in MI i think i'm already used to the rush of everything, so i guess if i'm supposed to be down for the meeting and open house and things like that so be it. Guess things just got a whole lot more interesting, so just bring it.
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2:19 AM;
Friday, January 9, 2009
For some reason i'm just not really inclined to write rhymes, maybe its cause there's no inspiration? Or maybe its cause its 4 in the morning, i'm not really sure but i feel like writing one and all i can come up with is darkness in the morning. Then my brain shuts off... hmmmm...
Somehow after 2day, its like what am i still doing in MI?!?!?!?!?! Then i remember what i had to do to stay in there and then think what the hell... I think i've still got that test thingy to take and see if i can stay or not, if they scrap that then i tink its most probably a shoo-in, but i still can't be late and stuff like that... I think i'm basically just rambling on cause i don't want the blog to look dead heh.
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3:58 AM;
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
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8:08 AM;
Monday, January 5, 2009
I'm blogging no more =)
Well at least until something interesting happens, cause its so damn boring here...
off to the gym...
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4:45 PM;
Sunday, January 4, 2009
I think i gotta go get a new disc... By Saturday LOL
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11:45 PM;
Living in a family with 2 younger brothers and a sister, makes for some interesting living. I went to google just now and clicked on the search bar, these are some of the more "interesting" things i saw, "what does it mean when my cat's stomach is big", "my cat's stomach is big, what should i do", "how did emily rose get possessed" and my favorite one, "how do i hypnotise myself" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Doesn't get any sadder than that HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!
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4:25 PM;
Saturday, January 3, 2009
After trying so hard to stay awake last night, i finally manage to finish watching The Duchess. Personally i'm not really into historian films and i when i saw the words "produced by BBC Films" i was tempted to just close the entire window, but after forcing myself to watch it, i realised it really helped.
1: It documented the life of an important figure in History.
2: It was a woman, so thats gonna help in lit.
3: For anyone who cannot stand to watch Tess or RMV, watch this.
4: Sounds shallow but the main actress is Keira Knightley, after Pirates 1 - 3 who doesn't like her.
5: Its simple enough for anyone who doesn't know a shred of history to understand
Last but not least: Its based on a true story.
So go watch it.
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5:55 PM;
Friday, January 2, 2009
Memories from my past are somewhat different, as with every new year there comes a period of "Spring Cleaning" where i find myself looking at all the useless clutter that i've accumulated on my new desk, just 2 months old and already looking like a mountain of paper and cards. Thinking to myself how the hell did it get so messy. More miraculously that i've always been able to find my stuff in all of the clutter and not being able to when its, "clean". But after rummaging through the entire mess for about an hour or so i've found so many things that mean so much to me. At the risk of sounding like a character from the Joy Luck Club, these small bits and pieces have a story of their own and it somehow trails off and ties itself to another knick-knack that i find lying nearby. Notebooks, photographs, a paper clip that cost me 4 bucks, just to name a few are all lying in a box now and funnily enough, its only when i "spring clean" again nxt year that i'll open them up, laugh or smile, whichever is needed and put them back, for the year after that. As the dread of cleaning leaves me with my mind wrapped around the idea that i'll never finish cleaning up, it somehow turns to reminiscing of the good times that i've had. The times that i really wanted to share with so many people and yet never really got the chance to. But thats all over now, the cards and the papers will remain there, the table will be cluttered soon enough as the school days come around and soon i will find myself lost in a world of memories. Like an old man remembering his long lost friend, i will smile and play those memories over and over again, saving them for a worser time.
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4:07 PM;
Thursday, January 1, 2009
This year i wanna have one and just one new year's resolution. That would be to have none, why bother. I know i'm not gonna follow through, so to avoid disappointing all the good folk out there who are reading this or want something out of me that would be of benefit to them in some way, sorry =)
Happy New Year everyone =)
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11:25 PM;
