Sunday, November 30, 2008
Yesterday i saw something that made me happy and sad at the same time, it was one of those family moments that i rarely get to see cause one, it didn't happen in my home, i swear my home kinda has a shield for these kinda things and two, it happened with two people i haven't seen in a superbly long time namely Mama and Jie. Long story short, Jie's gonna get married in August and obviously wants Mama to go, but one thing Mama said really struck me hard was that she said "I don't go nevermind, your mummy must go." I thought back and i found it hard to believe that Mama actually said that cause she was there from the very start, the very least she would've wanted was to be there then it hit me that she couldn't see what was going on even though she could be there. So it was kinda pointless, and she even had to be fed. A huge blow to her already diminished ego and the tiny remains of whatever pride she had left that her illness had caused her to lose. Jie kept fighting though, wanting Mama to attend, i hope she does. I really do.
Plus plus, there's someone out there who's situation is gonna be somewhat similar to mine. Its real crazy actually and i'm kinda disappointed cause its not really good news, kinda like one of those contradictory things. I hope his/her future will be totally fine and that he/she will never find out how or why and stuff like that but i hope they'll love him more than he/she should be loved. No one should have to find out the same way i did, even if it was a "joyous" mood.
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2:51 PM;
