Saturday, August 30, 2008
I'm beginning to become real familiar with the hospital already man... i can practically close my eyes and navigate around so thats a plus bad point already. We've got the Kopitiam Card and can actually argue over what and where gets the best place for discounts or top up services. What i'm trying to say is that THIS IS BAD. In and out of the hospital ain't something that should be proclaimed so happily luh. Its all on the back of our minds, just that maybe some of you guys are like me and are freaking terrified to even think of it luh. I don't know what's the reason for you guys but i'm still clueless how i'm gon be like after she's "gone" and the adults, who can ever forget them cause you guys, are still acting more CHILDISH then EVER! BUT! hey, its your choice to argue/quarrel/ fight with whoever or whatever you guys want right? i mean who the hell am i to judge? Thats why i'm always quiet, i've nothing to say. Fight lor. if you want, gimme a month or so and i'll build the make-shift ring for you guys to use, more "civilised" plus the ropes and everything, bell included pay more i'll throw in the scoreboard also.
Now i've got that out the way, i. am. damn. tired... my body feels broken up... i dunno how to really describe it, but i guess broken is the only word i can think of and based on what happened earlier, i don't think i'd be able to sleep much or at all tonight. After being "shouted" (cause its in the hospital) and "screamed" at, i got to thinking luh, my meeting with the doc is this coming Monday and i dunno why i dunno how, i feel scared. For the 1st time in my life, i feel scared for myself, really scared. Its accumulation of injuries, they could just tell me i can never do any sport ever again, i can't do that. I don't even know if i wanna go or not and i'm actually telling mum and dad to go to work and let me go myself cause i dunno how i'll react and i dun want them to see how i'd really react... i just... i dunno... once the throbbing starts i don't know anymore.
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8:52 PM;
