Remember this blogskin? Yea, its the one i used when i 1st created my blog. I kinda missed it so i looked for it, found it and am currently using it =) Anyways i just came back from Mama hse, for the 1st time i came home in the morning. Oh and i brought breakfast for them, breakfast in the form of pizzas so yea they didn't complain. Darnell still isn't home so Twinkle's been sleeping in the room alone these past few nights, as usual Shaun didn't do anything so i took the rep for that. Oh well, Twinkle is "my cat" anyways so i don't really mind. Somehow after the G.A.P outing i've been thinking more... clearly(?) i managed to sort out certain things in my life and looking at them i realise maybe they're just not meant to be there, or just not meant to be and no matter how i try it just doesn't fall that way. Maybe God has something greater planned for me and is waiting for me to be ready for it, hence all this craziness and randomness and whenever i'm on the verge of falling or wanting to give up, i see that proverbial light at the end of the tunnel and pull through and everything turns out so much better than expected and the way i feel has changed too. I don't know what i'm actually capable of and slowly he's letting me see. I was up the whole night thinking about this and came to the realization that all these are just minor tests to see if i'm ready for whatever he's gonna throw at me. Me and James were talking about or childhood and friends and i realized i'm seriously bloody lucky, as my homies would know i ain't too chummy with my family, i'm closer to Mama's side so i don't really relate to the people at home and i guess the reason behind that is cause i wasn't around majority of the time. Then i thought thats really good cause now they out to get me and it ain't working, it used to but now it ain't. I became more involved with family stuff, like the bigger family issues where everyone's involved and i guess thats really good. I'm in the perfect position to rope all the cuzzins together and keep them together unlike the growns who act more childish than us.
So i'd like to take this time to thank those who've walked the journey of life with me, you guys my homies and you know it, you down for me like i'm down for you guys and given a chance to be there for you guys i'd do it in a heartbeat cause i know my homies would do the same for me. Thank you for being such wonderful people and even though some of you ain't exactly role-models you guys told me not to follow suit and gave me options to choose from, respected me as an individual and friend and whether knowingly or not, gave me the opportunity to learn how to become a better friend. So to all you guys out there you know who you are i wanna say thank you and i love you guys, its been a while since we last talked but i know you guys remember me and miss me as much as i miss you guys and i hope we meet someday, till then take care =)
Thank God for people like them and keeping me from turning out to be ungrateful ingrates who don't know anything =) Out.
