Monday, June 30, 2008
The bitchass exams are finally over... i know i'ma fail most of the papers luh, not those kind where i say i'll fail then i pass but the other kind where i really fail luh, then again if i say i fail i always fail wat HAHA. Like i said, the exams were a bitch, worse than that actually, then again maybe they wouldn't be so if i like studied? LOL what's done is done and i don't wanna turn back time. Things that happened during that period of time are out of my life and out my system and they ain't never coming back which sits just fine by me.
Cue the hospital and Mama is still in there and by a unaccounted for checkup, she's found to still have fever so everyone decided against her coming home, don't get me wrong, they want her home, just that they want her home as in not sick then come home. All i want is for her to recover asap so i can talk to her without her falling asleep again, irritating luh... LOL nuh she needs her rest, i just want her home nice and safe then everyone can kinda like go back to their normal lives and then maybe they'd stop being so damn paranoid bout everything? Btw i am gonna find out and i have my ways so just chill.... Sides family politics to me is all fun and all but after a while it just kinda gets boring cause well, its pretty much like a drama really and those who are really sincere about it wanna get out of it while the bystanders add more fuel to the fire and soon it'll all blow up. When that happens i'll be there to pull them out. Quiet i can stay no longer, now i've got the time =) so try me.
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4:34 PM;
Thursday, June 26, 2008
For the first time since the GP papers i feel that i didn't do so badly for it, well namely lit cause its my most loved subject no matter how crappy the teachers are, hold up i ain't saying our teachers aren't good, they're brilliant, i was referring to the others i've had =) shan't name who. For fairness sake.
Train of thought today would be:
When i thought the past was the past it just comes back somehow, maybe trying to tell me something? I mean what i've got now in the present is swell, really, couldn't ask for more. But this is a lil off maybe?
Anyways past would include something like this =)
Yep this is the one and only "portable" air hockey table me and Jem spent making last year haha so much for the 'O's haha but yea. Can't remember which was longer though, making the table or playing with it haha but one thing i can say is that it was much more difficult to build it once the surface was buffed, the handles were customized and the disc was built. =)
We're charging 2 dollars per play, cause 4 peeps can actually work on this thing, thats how cool it is heh. Like i said, one of a kind huh? =)
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7:05 PM;
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
i dunno mayne after 2day i don't think i should stay on in M.I luh... maybe i should've listened to myself in the first place and never gone there at all...?
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11:46 PM;
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
The exams are a bitch... and i tink maybe, just maybe i made a freakin elephant fly out the window.... (stands at the window waving to the elephant that's gonna buy him pizza) ok back to to blogging. I know i should be studyin for math but seriously people, unlike you guys i'm not brilliant. I haven't touched a textbook, not that we have one, so erm notes, for the entire course of the holiday, i can't cram stuff in my head last min, all i've got is offhand off the top answers which help in class when i'm stoning not exams... oh well, better go tell mum to be prepared and psycho her to start my lessons b4 the results fly back to smack me straight in the face.
Btw, its not that i don't care, think back and reflect, true u ain't that good yourself but at least WE yes WE try, u stand by the sides complaining and shouting, which i feel is totally unfair. I understand you're stressed, but do u seriously think that we aren't? That our life is really a bed of roses? Well lemme tell you it ain't, compared to yours it ain't and let me just say continue with this and i guarantee you i'll shred those roses for you and leave you the thorns. You're on thin ice. You know what i can do, all this that i'm not doing is outta respect so do not push it. I've got no one to answer to and you know it.
Ok bye people sry for the "evil" sounding post, just something i had to get off my chest =) much better now good luck good luck good lucky for all the remaining exams, if u felt like u screwed up remember that you guys couldn't have screwed it up worse than me man haha
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9:23 PM;
Monday, June 23, 2008
I was asked to do this and instead of studying M.O.B i shall do this instead, much more fun hehe...
1:What disappoints you the most?
Hmmm... Broken promises. Made by me or made to me, both ways.
2:Where would you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Around the world, the ticket's for a world tour right?
3:What's the most romantic thing I would do with the one I love?
Ehm... ??? Not sure but it involves candles, stars and location.
4:Do you think money can buy happiness?
Do YOU think this question has been asked too many times? NO NO NO and never will be able to.
5:If you could have one dream come true what would it be?
Of course the usual successful yet unique career that not many people would have and to share it with my own homies.
6:Do you believe you can survive without money?
Depends actually? How many days? And where? S'pore cannot luh....
7:What are you afraid to lose the most?
Mama
8:If you had 1 Million bucks what would you do?
Another overused question... hmm 1/4 to charity the other quart to Mama, 1/4 to my family and the rest i'd use to buy a boat and live in it =)
9:What do you dream of doing in the future?
Tour the world, anyone care to join me? =)
10:List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
1: He's smart
2: Seems to be pretty romantic uh LOL
3: Fillial
11:What makes you happy?
Sun, water, friends and hours and hours of laughter and fun.
12:What type of person do you hate the most?
Indecisive people... cause you never get nowhere... and "naggish" kind... sry Mum hehe bet u dun like em' too. =) oh oh and arrogant people
13:Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Still sailing, doing my own thing and maybe just maybe with the slight possibility getting married? i dunno lol i leave it up to God =)
14:If you had one superpower what would it be?
Controllable mind reading so i'd be able to help better sometimes =)
15:What do you think is the most important in your life?
Hmmm... Mama, my friends, my family, God, my cats and my sports
16:Any childhood memories you would like to relieve?
I had a pretty cool childhood, like seriously no stress or worries, i'd relive the whole thing again =)
17:If you had a chance to change your life what would you change?
Nothing really, cept for the sunday night when i went to visit Mama then maybe she wouldn't be in the hospital now?
18:Which cartoon character do you like the most?
Batman, the only human being that's close to being invincible if it wasn't for old age. He doesn't seem to die from injuries now does he?
19:Are you courageous enough to tell that special someone you like her?
Yes? I dunno, depends really...
20:List out the one thing you felt when you read this person's tag.
A SAVE FROM STUDYING M.O.B =)
OK now that i'm done i'll pass the message along to my homies and then get back to studying tra la la.... i'm so damn tired luh... i dun wanna drop dead... at least not now luh. 1 more week, sailing sailing sailing
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8:56 PM;
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Day b4 exam
the holidays are gonna be over in a couple hours time and like always, I'VE NOT STUDIED FOR THE EXAMS!!!!! Familiar scenario no? Trying to cram history and all that into my tiny brain now is almost impossible cause its filled with the thoughts of after the mid-years, yes very typical Kenneth. Sailing sailing sailing. I'll sail away and never come back hehe. Don't feel like coming back anyways. Maybe i'll sail away to another country? But i'll have to wait to do that... cause i haven't renewed my passport.... i shall do that nxt week so i have 2 weeks to wait then immediately after the idiotic papers, i'll disappear, or attempt to. Depending on Mama's condition. Who came up with Steven-Johnson anyways?!?! Its like sunburnt without the sun.... hmmm.... overactive mitochondrions? Wearing the gown is totally cool... well no nt really but its the only way i can see Mama, or even get near her for that matter. " Mdm Chua, le hor boh?" LOL Maybe the silver lining there is that the t.v's pretty cool? There's cable =) but i ain't sayin i want Mama to stay there luh, she's got cable back home, i'd rather watch cable there. It was open season a week ago, now we've got the prime suspects and no one and i mean NO ONE, is willing to shoulder any, ANY responsibility.... Now as usual everyone's playing the blame game, who wants to step up and get shot instead of Mummy? She's taking the rap for everything, hmmm now why's that? At least they've the sense not the play "Open" in front of me. As much as i can't get along with her, i don't like it when they diss Mum. What is it with adults and their damned family politics anyways?
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3:10 PM;
Monday, June 16, 2008
Mama
Sailing is cool. Boat license here i come, then i'll sail away without a care, rob me if you want Shaun, ain't no way in hell you out running me, even in water. Just when i thought there's no alternative route, He amazingly gives me another outlet of energy and passion. You are truly Great. So i'll sail away asap and then i won't come back. I already won't come back cause i can't and i'm needed somewhere else, that much i know and i don't know what else is in store but i trust you. Though the decision has been hard its whats for the best. Cruel irony but what can i say? I give myself 2 days to recover so i can go visit Mama, it sucks to have to stand in the corner feeling so damn helpless, hibernation period here i come.
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11:33 PM;
Sunday, June 15, 2008
3 Doors Down - Let Me Go
One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me
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2:16 PM;
Monday, June 9, 2008
I Love The Holidays =)
I love the holidays, cause i get to stay home and rot plus i get to see Socks do this =)
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4:35 PM;
Friday, June 6, 2008
Proof or do you want me to Prove? =)
MY LIFE IS A TESTIMONY THAT GOD EXISTS =)
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12:51 AM;
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Song(s) of the week =)
John Mayer - Say
Jason Myraz - I'm Yours
Darren Hayes - Insatiable
J Mac - Leaving
Bye people =)
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11:17 PM;
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Nostalgia no?
Remember this blogskin? Yea, its the one i used when i 1st created my blog. I kinda missed it so i looked for it, found it and am currently using it =) Anyways i just came back from Mama hse, for the 1st time i came home in the morning. Oh and i brought breakfast for them, breakfast in the form of pizzas so yea they didn't complain. Darnell still isn't home so Twinkle's been sleeping in the room alone these past few nights, as usual Shaun didn't do anything so i took the rep for that. Oh well, Twinkle is "my cat" anyways so i don't really mind. Somehow after the G.A.P outing i've been thinking more... clearly(?) i managed to sort out certain things in my life and looking at them i realise maybe they're just not meant to be there, or just not meant to be and no matter how i try it just doesn't fall that way. Maybe God has something greater planned for me and is waiting for me to be ready for it, hence all this craziness and randomness and whenever i'm on the verge of falling or wanting to give up, i see that proverbial light at the end of the tunnel and pull through and everything turns out so much better than expected and the way i feel has changed too. I don't know what i'm actually capable of and slowly he's letting me see. I was up the whole night thinking about this and came to the realization that all these are just minor tests to see if i'm ready for whatever he's gonna throw at me. Me and James were talking about or childhood and friends and i realized i'm seriously bloody lucky, as my homies would know i ain't too chummy with my family, i'm closer to Mama's side so i don't really relate to the people at home and i guess the reason behind that is cause i wasn't around majority of the time. Then i thought thats really good cause now they out to get me and it ain't working, it used to but now it ain't. I became more involved with family stuff, like the bigger family issues where everyone's involved and i guess thats really good. I'm in the perfect position to rope all the cuzzins together and keep them together unlike the growns who act more childish than us.
So i'd like to take this time to thank those who've walked the journey of life with me, you guys my homies and you know it, you down for me like i'm down for you guys and given a chance to be there for you guys i'd do it in a heartbeat cause i know my homies would do the same for me. Thank you for being such wonderful people and even though some of you ain't exactly role-models you guys told me not to follow suit and gave me options to choose from, respected me as an individual and friend and whether knowingly or not, gave me the opportunity to learn how to become a better friend. So to all you guys out there you know who you are i wanna say thank you and i love you guys, its been a while since we last talked but i know you guys remember me and miss me as much as i miss you guys and i hope we meet someday, till then take care =)
Thank God for people like them and keeping me from turning out to be ungrateful ingrates who don't know anything =) Out.
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4:04 PM;
