Saturday, May 31, 2008
Mama Hse
I'm still at Mama's hse so yea, my lil retreat from everything, at a no cost stress free environment? Anyways, felt like i really needed it after everything that's been going on lately, both emotionally and pyshically. Mum ain't too happy with it, i know, she never is so naturally when i asked for an extention she said the same usual, "Up to you..." before she hung up on me, oh well. Mama's been doing great, she seems much more happier now, cept she sleeps more often, like constant afternoon naps and stuff like that, she can hardly stay awake any longer than 11 plus, she used to watch wrestling with me way into the night, like about 2 when it started and 4 when it ended. She just asks me to explain everything to her the next morning now... which is kinda sad actually... good thing is Uncle Boon is back from Malaysia and Tua Yee and Jie are back from Hong Kong and Indonesia bearing gifts =) I got some Bailey's from Jie and lots of noodles from Tua Yee haha "Indomee" like 1 box?
Sentosa G.A.P Trip
Yeap i attended the G.A.P event. it was more fun than expected. Sun, sea, sand, water, vivo, friends, new friends, interesting games, luge and sky ride, dragon trail and team work = 101% Fun. No regrets for going haha, made me view G.A.P in a new light, they really do seem like a pretty cool group and i wouldn't mind hanging out with them, as in they're really cool people and they seem so nice and friendly. Plus its pretty much the only "church" i can go to now, like on those tuesdays?
I've been thinking alot lately, maybe all this happened for a reason? All of those whom i've met have some difficulty somewhere, is it actually possible that i'm supposed to let them see the light, spread the message and then fade into the background? What is it exactly?
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Monday, May 26, 2008
Ever wondered how difficult it is to say hi to a bunch of people that you were once so close with, so tight like they were your homies; homeboys and homegirls? Just a few days ago i was browsing through my Mindchamps folder and saw the comments all of my classmates gave me and there was this one thing that kept popping up, "Keep In Touch." sounds so simple yet we don't really do that. After that i guess everyone just kinda sorta drifted away? I dunno abt them but i sure haven't talked to them in a super long time and truth is i miss them so much, just as much as i miss my PAE friends (BPC Outing when?) its so ironic cause i see a bunch of them online yet i can never find the right words to place after i say hi.... like what?!?! IRONY
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Saturday, May 24, 2008
If...
Mum made this in passing comment 2day, "Ever realize that a family can do without a father but will FAIL without a mom?"
Super weirded out Saturday 2day, made plans for a steamboat gathering but had to cancel, cause SOMEONE decided to go overseas and my brother's room had to be packed, tidied and cleared up so Emily can move in... the joys of being the eldest... anyways, moved the GREAT CUPBOARD of the spare room to my aunt's room, i wonder how it ever got up there, was too sleepy to take a photo of it but it reached the ceiling and we lugged it down, Me, Mum and Aunt. An hour later and the cupboard is now standing in all it's forgotten glory in my Aunt's room now, easier for her Mum says, oh well. Nothing to show for it but a stuffy nose and swollen ankle. Rest of the day went by pretty banal. I stayed a homebody. There.
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Thursday, May 22, 2008
No More
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
Life goes on
Despite all that happened, life still goes on, so this is my week in general. Monday is just as usual, this time we had a timed assignment, not really sure how i'm gonna do for this one though and just 4 days b4 the GP paper? i dun really see the relevance here, but i guess they never did see the relavance in anything huh? Then came tuesday where i didn't go school and found out i'm "sick"? yea so i have medication and "orders" not to do sports. Wednesday flew by in a rush and i went back for frisbee training, Thursday was just was fast and then came Friday, GP paper and Sports Day. GP was surprisingly ok but i still don't know how i'm gonna fare. Sports Day was a killer, for the Sports Council people at least, the senoirs weren't kidding... but i guess it does have its perks.
Oh and I FAILED MY 2.4!!! like for the 1st time lah... so sad... so i've to run again on tuesday... irony. Then there's 2day, when i overslept slightly but still made it on time for TeenGames, a lil disappointed wit the performance but found solace in the fact that i managed to score a crazy throw before the game ended, we've still got another game this Monday though, i wonder how that's gonna go. " I run, you huck, we score we hug" ? ain't that the theme? Then comes the band concert which was pretty good, Jerrold and the guys were great =) we didn't even know he messed up till he called to tell us lah.
Celebrating Shaun's b-day 2mw =) dunno where though, and i'm still an open target, oh well
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Sunday, May 11, 2008
Life and Death
hmm... all i gotta say is that its been a pretty "interesting" Saturday for me, i woke up to Twinkle purring really loudly and instantaneously knew she was gonna give birth. So i sorta stayed home to take care of her, 3 hours later her water bag burst and she tried to give birth. Long story short, the tail of the kitten came out first so it was difficult to give birth and it's head was too big to fit through so we don't have a kitten with us. Kick the story to today, Twinkle is still calling out for her child, i still feel a tinge of sadness for Socks and Twinkle and we all miss the kitten terribly. It was a mistake on our part that we didn't rush her there in time, that i didn't argue cause i thought i was doing the right thing by keeping silent, its not your fault Mum. We're all sad, including all those who've never seen Twinkle and Socks before, stop blaming yourself, everyone misses the kitten.
I'm sorry we couldn't welcome you into the world, that you couldn't see what your parents look like and that your parents feel so much of your passing... I'm sorry... i just hope you're in good hands now... Rest in Peace...
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Saturday, May 10, 2008
T.G.I.F
Mama got discharged from the hospital 2day =) well i had to travel all the way to Outram b4 i found out but main point here is that she's out. Wanted to go visit her 2day but decided against it as she's usually sleepy after long hospital stays, change of environment maybe? I for one am glad she isn't going to spend her Mother's Day in the hospital. In lieu of Mother's Day, Mum and the aunts are in St James now, clubbing, yesh, T.H.E.Y A.R.E C.L.U.B.B.I.N.G just ask my genius of a cousin =) so the men stay home and look after the kids. Dad's been doing a pretty god job so far, he's been sleeping since Mum left so i'd consider that a job well done, no one was fighting, shouting and/or screaming so i guess it wasn't so bad. Week's been pretty crazy, even though there was an unofficial holiday, it sure didn't seem like it. Yet through everything i'm reveling in the midst of it, maybe Nicole is right, that i enjoy making myself feel tired? Truth is, i am tired, yet i feel there's so much more that i have to do before i can call a time out and take a small step back. Then again maybe its because i've been having too many redundant things to solve which explains my tiredness. Redundant yet so important? Someone once asked me, when do you know when's the right time to take a step back from everything and give yourself some alone time. So when is that time?
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Rules were meant to be broken
I WAS LATE 2DAY, tried to sneak back i and got caught so i didn't go school. PLUS i don't have an MC =) not exactly inclined to queue for an MC in BB Polyclinic, there are other people out there who need the doctor more than i do, i'll just take it out of the 7 times A.W.A.L thingy the school gave us. Lesson learnt, NEVER take a cab from Yishun to BB, 2 reasons, 1: You'll still be late, the traffic is TERRIBLE. 2: Cab fare was 25.80, nuff said.
Its weird cause in secondary school and primary school, i always wanted to skip school and stay home, now that i've got "legit" reasons to do so, i dun feel like skipping school anymore its not the guilt or anything, its more like i wanna study and see the people in school, like the people that make schooling so much more easier and fun and for some reason i get this uneasy feeling not seeing them or in this case, Nicole, for a day, like something's really missing, a huge part is missing from my day. So i've decided i don't wanna be late anymore, i'm gonna start waking up at ridiculous times in the morning just to get to school on time.
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Sunday, May 4, 2008
This Is My Sunday
Haircut, Bus to Vivo, Merlion, stoning at the water's edge, music feast/ music obsession, no es amor, tu amor, Un Angelo etc. Outram and SGH, Block 7, the random thoughts that run through my head, You (namely Nicole), Mama, the belief of Angels and Faith, Snowy, Twinkle, Precious and Socks, Jason Mraz - I'm Yours, life of luxury, silverware and silver spoons, frisbee, rugby, dragonboat, Sunshine, Love, stars and the galaxy beyond, A1 - When I'm Missing You, poetry, the week before and nxt.
Have a great Sunday =)
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Friday, May 2, 2008
Night Watch
I'm accompanying Socks as he patiently waits outside the room for Twinkle and my Mum, a true gentleman found in a cat. Irony no? Sleep isn't an option for me tonight, i'd rather be up lookin after Twinkle in case she decides to give birth sometime now. So yeap. Air Con's spoilt too so, my decision is a smart one, that is until i go to school =)
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Thursday, May 1, 2008
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