Saturday, March 29, 2008
With You With You With You...
i'm so darn tired.... its an accumulation from the week and the previous week, i've no idea what really happened except for what happened on Monday and everything that involves the incident, other than that everything else is pretty much a blur, i'm still on MC which really sucks but i still played during the competition 2day, the way i saw my team mates giving it all they've got and more just cause i couldn't play at full potential brought me back into the game. If only i could do that for rugby lol. Oh and i went for the ERC open house 2day, its a really cool campus and though there are other courses i can take out there, i still find what ERC has to offer is still the best =) so yeap, let the psycho-ing start. Plus after the open house i saw this really cool condo that was built on stilt like pillars so it makes it look WAY much higher and the design is really unique. If i sign up for the classes there i'll get to see it everyday lol. Plus the lecturers are really nice, friendly people =) i'm supposed to go to the gym with Yewf 2mw but he hasn't confirmed a timing with me so that's still pending... i'll just prepare just in case he remembers....
You're that special to me and i never wanna let you go, never make you sad and i'm so glad i met you because you made my life so much more beautiful in ways i could have never imagined. pour toujours amour this i promise.
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11:31 PM;
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Leaving
I don't really feel like explaining why i'm not going for Rugby practice, it kinda does get me down but yea whatever. I've got an injury, its an old injury and i've been wearing a knee guard to numb the pain a lil. I've nt been to see a doc cause i dun want to hear the doc say i can't play sports for any period of time so yea. But i've thought abt it and decided to just go, so yeap i'm just waiting for the referral letter which would see me end up in pyshiotherapy AGAIN. haha yea that whole episode again, but this time it's gon be diff, i've got the support of ppl who care abt me and ppl that i care for so maybe it won't be so bad after all. =)
You have no idea how lucky i am to have found you =)
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10:43 PM;
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Selling Stuff....
Hmmm.... nt exactly how i'd like to update my blog but still its better than nth right? ANYWAYS,
My Dad decided to sell the entire encylopedia collection since its been collecting dust for monkey years now. Plus some Sesame Street kid book collection too, so yeap anyone who wants to buy them just let me know yea? Thanks =)
This is what the encyclopedia collection looks like anyways. =)
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1:35 PM;
Thursday, March 13, 2008
What is...?
Someone asked me to define "love" 2day... pretty good question i gotta admit, one that would require months or even years of debate and yet we would never find an answer we would all agree on. Agreed? Well thankfully for us, there is the dictionary and based on dictionary.com there are several meanings, eg. | 1. | a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. |
| 2. | a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend. |
there are altogether 28 definitions of love and to me none of them make much sense. I used to think i understood what love was and the actual meaning of it but sadly it was all an illusion. (Don't wanna go into details here) So to actually answer that question required some thinking... and i realised, there really isn't anyway to describe, explain or express love. Or there really isn't a standard way to do it. It really depends on who is the recipient of this wonderful thing called love. Like Mum doesn't like mushy stuff so Dad would make it up by doing the simplest of things for her, like asking her how was her day, though they work together and basically showing interest in her life, in short including her in his and vice versa. Plus in this time and age, i find love to be the most overused and overrated word in the english dictionary. Almost everyone is using it but do they really mean it? In all contexts, do they really mean it? I guess the question should really be does TRUE love still exist?
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11:12 PM;
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Lost
Down the path he walks,
alone, but beside him everyone talks
they speak of him as though he's not there
His feelings hurt? They wouldn't care
All his life he wanted to belong
Asking himself time and time again is it so wrong?
All around him he finds hate
Wanting to be accepted is it too late?
Then someone from the crowd pulls him near
The meaning of his life he never saw so clear
To love her with all his heart and hold her dear
Stay right by her side and chase away all her fears
And when the time comes for them to leave the world
A new journey they'd begin to unfurl
Together hand in hand
A love, through time, withstand
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10:00 PM;
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
What's going on?
Why is it that u never miss certain things till they're gone? Example, i miss the hell out of my PAE frens, though they knew they weren't staying for long they were united, especially BPC. I knew that they wouldn't let me down no matter what, but its an entirely different scenario with my JAE "frens" classic example was last week, i mean if it was some stupid practical joke then i'm fine with it, but seriously the look on their faces when they did that to me, that i'll never forget... is it cause i've offended them in some way that i've yet to find out? I mean its so messed up, and i bet u guys had no idea how idiotic i felt there all alone... thankfully Kah Leong, Danny and Yewf were there to accompany me and Yewf thank you for sitting behind me making me seem less like a social outcast.... so much for class unity
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9:34 PM;
Monday, March 10, 2008
It's finally OVER
Yes the last day of IT show is finally over, through it all i can say being a sales rep sucks and there ain't much to do but to put my limits to the test and just go for it all. 1st day sucked real bad though i like sold only 1 set so that gave me 15 + 20 bucks (i dun even think i've got commission for that) but yea then 2nd day i sold 6 more and on the last day everything just went out the window, we gave freebies away like they were nothing, i mean like yea they are already kinda like worth not much but still if the company can save costs they should right? So yea, maybe it'll come out of my commission or sumtink, dun really care though, i'll just take it as a learning experience or sumtink then the cash would be an added bonus. I'm just glad its all over, i realise that i actually can do sales but i'll do it really reluctantly and when i wanna do sales i'll give the best i can give at the risk of losing my own commission lol so like when i tell the customer i like them so i give them more free stuff, its the truth and its also partially cause i just wanna seal the deal asap, human nature to ask for more without giving so much. Gotta admit though slammin the display laptops on the desk is pretty cool, then we ask the customers to do it and when they eventually do it they freak out LOL. Its so sad, now i can say i slammed a 5K laptop that weighed 4.8kg on the table and it didn't break/crack/auto shutdown or have any other negative effect happen to it =)
Now i'm slightly more sober. I've been thinking, i'm like 18 this year and i realize back in nursery or kindergarden, when every other kid was writing or drawing their ambition, all i ever did was to sit there and wonder what ice cream was i gonna eat later, 10+ years on i realize i dun even have a list of stuff i wanna do b4 i die... SO SAD RIGHT? So i'll make one now, like an impromtu one (my spelling is way off... i'm so sleepy right now... zzz...)
This is accordin to the "Doomsday Clock" thingy the year 2012
1: Talk to the dead ask them how's afterlife like
2: Work at DFS just to laugh at the kinda questions tourists ask, which in turn make me realise how dumb we actually are, so much for human supremacy
3: Watch Wrestlemania live JUST for the hype =)
4: Have a nice long conversation with my folks, i don't talk to them, they just kicked me out of the car like on the way home 2day...
5: Attend all the different types of wedding ceremonies and just for fun, congratulate the bride and groom then start a food fight or sumtink
6: Get Hendrick the stupid PE shirt he's been bugging me for even b4 JAE started, SEE I REMEMBERED
7: I owe Brian 16 bucks so i'll have to pay him back =) LOL
8: Get my driver's licence, take the family car and just drive it around till there's no more petrol, call my folks and ask if i can leave the car somewhere (cause i'm too broke to pay for petrol) while i take public transport home =)
9: Play rugby in the white house preferably wit some random politician =)
10:Smash my spolit PSP wit a sledgehammer, i like got it fixed 3 times already and its still spoilt...
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1:22 AM;
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Back on that road...
I know i've been down this path before but i've never felt this way, this is just deafening and at the same time so silent its not there, its almost as though everything is just plain contradicting itself and everything around it and in the end i somehow just contradict myself more and more... like now... someone asked me why i was so emo 2day, guess i kinda was, but for a while, then i started thinking about everything and anything. Then suddenly for no apparent reason i started to feel alone like really alone, i mean i have really good friends who are there for me but for some reason i just can't seem to tell them all my problems and i somehow just choose to carry that burden alone, then at the same time i wanna help them carry theirs cause they mean so much to me and i just dun want to see them go through all that alone... i find it harder to walk away and leave them there than to go through whatever it is they need help with. For the first time in my life 2day, i've never felt more alone and i've never felt it so acutely... like everyone's been speakin on a different frequency and when they can't connect they just walk away to leave me there. Then again maybe i just need more alone time to think this through get over this crappy feeling and bounce back...? I need a bottle of aspirins... i'll take 2 and give the rest to whoever needs it, suicide is for losers and people who claim they've no meaning in life, they're just to lazy to look for it. I wish u were with me now...
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10:50 PM;
Monday, March 3, 2008
JAE and PAE
went out 2day wit my homies from JAE and PAE, kinda rushed actually, but i didn't have the heart to turn either party down so i just met up wit both groups of them. Went to cut my hair in the mornin b4 meetin Daniel and the rest at Marina, yes BPC Marina, thats where i was b4 i met u guys haha, then played pool and some arcade games b4 i left them to meet up wit PAE frens, a.k.a BPC, Izza and Zul were the only ones in school U haha Zul looks like an officer in his new U. Kel couldn't make it cause he went to Penang with his parents. So met them at Plaza Sing, i thought Kel was coming so he and Kim could go shoppin at Spotlight but he didn't so yea, but we still went there anyways so the rest of us just messed around there haha played wit the hats and everything, i guess a shop u wouldn't normally go into can be fun when u go in with the right ppl =) Kim bought her stuff and then we all left, me and Zul bought a bag of elastic spiders for the girls, our farewell gift, i didn't bring any bent or broken cutlery so we had to improvise haha left it in their bags, well... Kim and Izza's Jaja's was too difficult. Apparently Kim already found hers so i wonder what's Izza's reaction gonna be like haha
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10:58 PM;
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Socks!
This is Socks =) the newest addition to my family, my hse was the last hse she moved to after being "thrown" around different hses for 2 weeks. Her 1st owner decided that she was too much of a burden to look after her and they couldn't find someone to look after her while they went for their holiday so they gave her away. Her previous name was "Pussy" don't look at me like that, i don't like the name... So i renamed her Socks and she's been responding pretty well to it. Her nxt owner tied her outside the house and left her there, since they lived on the topmost floor, no one came to take her away but from the looks of it when i went to collect her, she probably didn't have lots of fun outside neither... When i brought her home, i kid u not, she started crying, the same thing she did when she moved to her 2nd home and the tears were flowing... then by nxt morning she started walking around the hse to explore, cute thing is she tried making frens with Precious, Snowy and Twinkle. So far only Snowy is willing to play with her, so Snowy would run and Socks would follow... so yea she's still not very good at socialising wit other cats haha but still she's super cute haha and Precious and Twinkle are still scared of her, cause she's like 2 times bigger than them haha
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9:58 PM;
Saturday, March 1, 2008
bored, i'm eatin potato chips now... i'm so gonna lose my voice at the rate i'm going haha, as expected Mum took one look at my arm and started shouting and screaming.... its only a minor scratch, i'm not gonna die from it... and she suspects i got into a fight... i've got better things to do... surprisingly i've got another bruise on my shoulder haha and i never even knew, "Mystery Bruise" LOL
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1:05 AM;
