Friday, February 29, 2008
So...?
Another week in MI, mostly sample lectures here and there, been pretty busy i guess, the whole week has been pretty much a blur, but i had a pretty good idea of what the hell JC life is really about. Still deciding the subject combination, Econs or Management of Business... if i take Econs i have the notes so should i take it? I told Mum i'd step down if it came to going toe to toe wit the teach, but would i really do it and be happy? Seems like lessons don't start till term 2, so that means we'll only know our class then, i hope i'm in the same class as some of my frens, i dun wanna be in a class where i dunno anyone again... its not that i ain't sociable, its just that i'm terrible with names, especially chinese names... i'd blame it on my terrible chinese speakin skills =)
2day i heard the announcement and knew something was up, so i went to the general office to look for Fariz, turns out he's confirmed kicked outta school.... Expelled would be the official term but who really cares now right? So yea... i feel pretty sad for him though, he did mention if he could he'd do it all over again but do it right this time. Like i said, if u ever need that petition going...
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9:33 PM;
Monday, February 25, 2008
And Best Clan Goes to...
Guess what? Neutrons won the best clan! Haha, though hopes of winning it were like 0% on the 1st day they somehow came through and cheered their lungs off and basically rocked at everything they did, hehe. Now orientation is over can't wait for lessons to start, still gotta hand my subject combo form up and i've still stuck deciding btwn Econs and Management of Business, both are kinda the same i guess but then i wanna know whats the difference before i make a decision... Looks like i'ma get a chance to find out 2mw cause i've got both these lessons 2mw... Econs is the 1st 2 periods... someone save me... i remember all the times i just zoned out in Econs cause of either lack of sleep or just plain boredom... goodness... what happened to the decision to study hard in MI? Was i just slacking away durin PAE? Now i've got another reason to turn back time... to study... and i tink i lost my notes somewhere, along with the geog ones... damn... kinda tired now though... once again i find myself stuck, thinkin abt what i want or am trying to do. Its really all a huge blur now... i know i should slow down but why aren't i? Is it the rush and thrill of it all then when its the final moment i realise i've yet a long way to go but i've reached the final destination but i'm not prepared or i can't backtrack and take a different path? I'm pretty much just tired mentally and physically but i can't stop, whats the key, the answer? Is it right there or must i still continue aimlessly like how i used to in the past and just end up with nothing?
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8:24 PM;
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Dream Again
Close your eyes
It ain't so bad
Heart filled with lies
Decisions made turned to regrets
True love he once thought found
Irony how it turned his life around
What dream he used to have
Burned down along with her leaving breath
Days he spent thinking of her
Gave all his worth but to no avail
She was gone and she left him there
His broken heart he tries to conceal
Now all he needs a second chance
To find the love he so longs to claim
And turn his life into a dream again
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2:16 PM;
Friday, February 22, 2008
Neutrons!
Hmmm... i'ma admit, JAE ain't turning out to be so bad after all, now that the clan is a lil more riled up, we've got a higher chance of winning the best clan award. Imagine a phoenix rising from the ashes or sumtink like that jyea, u got the Neutrons right there. Even if we don't win, i'm sure they're gon have fun plus the chance to make new frens, wats not to like? 2day was definitely WAY much better than the previous days, they suddenly became so enthu i was so shocked haha. Then we did the whole cheer thing and made them learn new cheers and all, almost lost my voice, but its pretty much worth it. Somehow i believe if the cheerleaders give 101% Neutrons would give them 101% back so on Monday i'ma give 101%, everything i have to lead the cheers and bring home the victory for Neutrons. I mean this IS orientation and we ARE supposed to have as much FUN as possible and make as many happy/good/memorable memories as possible right? So why not? Us winning the mystery game and family race is only the beginning, we gon win this right here. Out.
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11:58 PM;
Thursday, February 21, 2008
JAE
CONGRATULATIONS, YOU ARE ELIGIBLE FOR MILLENNIA INSTITUTE ARTS (043), why must they put that in CAPS? Like i woke up to that on tuesday so i'm blogging for a few days i tink, i'll start wit:
Wednesday
Woke up at another ridiculous time, this time earlier, 5! Not a big deal i know but i freakin need my sleep, wasn't so bad after going through PAE i guess, meet Yong Soon at Yishun station and saw Rahmah there too, so like just talked for a while b4 she boarded the train. Practically zoned out the entire trip there (mentally preparing myself) anyways, 1st day of orientation was a killer... talk after talk and eventually i forgot i had an ass, then we had ANOTHER tour of the school, then i saw Fariz and i was so freakin happy to see him, he's appealing to stay in MI, Good Luck dude, let me know if u ever need that petition =) After the tour was planning to go home *sneak out* but my homey became the flag-bearer so i stayed behind with him... Dude don't take the flag nxt time if u wanna go home early... went to meet Jia Li after that and eventually met up wit Stef, Mei Lin, Jem, Shaq and Dickson. After that went to have dinner at Eatzi with Hui Qi, Supek, Shaq, Eileen, Rui Ke, Kristin, Pei Rong and Jem just for memory sake went to lepak with them for a while after that b4 we sent Eileen and Hui Qi home, Rui Ke went to meet her boyfriend and Kristin's parents came to fetch her home, after sending them home i was bloody tired... planned to skip orientation 2day but eventually attended it, dun ask me why.
Thursday
Overslept slightly but still managed to get there in time, Brian overslept totally, still can store new PSP game... he called me in class to ask where is he supposed to be. He still came anyways, then we had games 2day plus a few cheers, its kinda hard to lead ppl to do cheers when they aren't inclined to cheer in the 1st place, now i know how the OGLs for PAE felt. Addams 1 still rocks. I don't sense much unity in my clan now, i gotta find some way to get them riled up or at least a lil bit more enthu, its not so much of winnin the best clan, its more of letting them enjoy their orientation cause they only do it once and then there's no more, i mean everyone hates orientation but if there was like some way i could get them to realise that then everything would be pretty much smooth sailing. Anyways, we played games and "bonded" with some members of my group, didn't really get the chance to talk to everyone in the group, i wonder whats missing here... we lost every single game we played haha its a total contrast to PAE haha went to Mama''s hse to do some stuff after that so i took the train home with ?Yeuth? cause he stays in Pasir Ris, ring a bell BPC? Haha so yea i dropped off at Outram and went to Kovan, after that i realised Izza and Cui Hua's school was like just nxt door, literally. So i smsed her to check if she was still in school, so i could go see how they were doing there, but Izza replied like 2 hours later, so i didn't go. Went home freakin tired after that.
More cheers 2mw i tink, and that ?Billy Panjang cheer? My fingers are tied in a knot from all the crossing, hopin that the Neutrons will be more responsive and enthu 2mw PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS
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10:26 PM;
Monday, February 18, 2008
Goodbye?
Last day of PAE, its sad everyone's going their seperate ways... but we'll still keep in contact right? I won't forget all the dumb things we did together, Bubble Pop Club, the ridiculous "Evil" comments, the Econs classes, most memorable GP and Lit classes inlcludin the 1st ever P.E lesson i ever hated in my entire life, all these memories i'll remember as long as i live, never laughed as hard in my life too haha. I'ma miss all u guys...
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10:16 PM;
Sunday, February 17, 2008
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12:46 PM;
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Thats what friends are for =)
Had my 1st lesson 2day, wasn't so bad i guess though the "student" needs alot of work so yes pls read ur notes. After that went to catch a movie with James and Daniela, Ah Long PTE LTD its freaking funny haha another singaporean comedy classic. Who would've thought they'd throw in additional meaning to the movie, showing another side of the gangsters in S'pore and our neighbour country M'sia. At some point it actually kinda makes u pity them instead of their victims. Halfway throughout the movie James left cause he had to catch another one with his friends, Jumper i tink, turns out the tixs sold out so he caught the 11.30 show instead and headed home after buying the tixs, after the movie walked Dan home and started talking, its been so long since i had a conversation with her, especially since she's been going through all this shit and the only form of contact i've had with her is through sms. Hang in there girl, one more year. =)
During the conversation i realized how damn lucky i've been the entire time, just that i didn't realize it till now. Yea i feel like a bastard i dun exactly know why but yea. Anyways, the story is when i was going through a real shitty time wit a certain someone (in the past dun wanna bring it up) and was too blinded to realize that i was in a bad way, my frens felt pissed off for me, not with me for me and they did the thing most ppl wouldn't do and they stood up for me, like those kinda backstage things where u dun really see it but they still do it. And thing is these ppl are ppl whom i dun really talk to, and they're saying things like "He doesn't deserve this." Says alot abt themselves and how much they care for their frens, even those who are mere aquaintances and i never knew till 2day when Dan brought it up. So here is my informal appreciation to u guys, i'm going back to school on tuesday 2 do a formal one, thank you for being there for me, when i thought u guys were busy doing ur own thing and i was busy doing mine, for keeping me in your thoughts when i didn't keep u in mine, for playing the supporting role in this play called life. But most importantly, thank u to all u guys, for being my friends =)
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11:21 PM;
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Valentine's Day
Can't seem to upload photos at all... will try another time...
Anyways, its Valentines Day 2day and i "skipped" school well the intention was to skip but i got this major headache and got a fever... i dun fall sick so its pretty weird i fell sick so suddenly... but i'm better now and should be headin back to school 2mw. Feel kinda bad leaving the guys in school while i slept at home, actually given a choice i'd rather be in school, at least i'd be havin fun wit u guys. Yea the "Bubble Pop Club" its so lame its fun haha. I came to realise that Valentines day is slightly overrated, i mean why should there be one special day to cherish the ones we love by lavishing chocolates, roses, cards and whatever lovey-dovey stuff it is that makes their significant half swoon with joy? So I guess Zul's got a point. A message to all the other lonely ppl out there, dun despise Valentines day nxt time, embrace it, i'm single and on the many occasions i find myself wishing there was someone to share my joy or whatever trouble i'm going through i realise that there are times when i felt being single was better, for one, we don't have to stress abt buying Valentines day presents and hoping our girl or guy likes it, so yea i guess thats another one on the up side.
Wanted to spend today with my homies in 08A3 i woke up and had fever and for some reason i couldn't get up at all... so i had to sleep in, Dan messaged me around 9 and woke me up felt slightly better after that and when i checked the other messages, i realised Kristin and Gene also smsed me, what got me was that they actually bothered to message the single people, who had no girlfriend or boyfriend to sms or meet throughout the day and exchange vows of never-ending/everlasting love, just to make sure they didn't feel left out. So to all the singletons out there, can't spend V Day wit a member of the opposite sex that u really like? Spend it with frens who really care =)
Going back to school 2mw =) Out.
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9:43 PM;
Monday, February 11, 2008
Sleepy...
no idea why i'm still not sleepin since i'm sleepy... i'm more bored... i'll upload some pics nxt post... zzzzz... ok bye...
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8:56 PM;
Sunday, February 10, 2008
18!
18 years ago on this very day i was born, to make life difficult for the people around me or to guide them when they have problems, i still don't know. All i know is that in the process of these 18 years i've met great wonderful friends, i have a loving Mum and Dad, ** , relatives and strangers ( my dad's frens) Had like a mini get together with them family and my Dad decided to blow it up, so he invited the entire family tree, minus the dead ones, plus his frens who well came to gamble... it was really like last minute though so i couldn't really invite most of my frens and for that i feel so bad i'll make it up to u guys, somehow someway i will. For those who could make it on such short notice i thank u guys so much. Ashley thank you for the rose, all the aunties and uncles thank you for the extra ang paos =), James thank you for the card tricks and the new set of cards, perform at the next party please? Emily and Anna thank you for practising and playing my b'day song, Shaun and Jie for the polo tees, Stephanie and Ryan for the really cute key chain, thank you to all those frens who wished and are still wishing me happy b'day. But most importantly the credit all goes to Mum, the past few nights have been crazy for her, she's been preparing dish after dish after dish just cause Dad wants to impress his frens and though he shouted at her and everything, i got pissed off instead but she kept her cool i dunno how but yes, through it all she did everything and not once lost her cool. Even when i spilt tea on the tablecloth this morning.. hehe... yea that was my bad. So yea, i don't say this often in fact i dun ever say this at all but Mum i love you for everything u've done though u get on my nerves sometimes i guess it really is for my own good, we've bitched abt each other, sometimes even face to face but i guess we're just good at that and that i'm glad that this is all over and u're actually sleeping early for once in the past week.
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12:14 AM;
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Goodbye
This might sound a lil weird to some ppl out there but i assure u i am still normal. Ok... here goes, i woke up this morning looked at the newspaper and just stoned for abt 10 mins after reading the headlines, for the benefit of those who haven't read the newspaper, "Ah Meng" the orang utan has passed away. I'm an animal lover, explains the 3 cats, 2 hamsters and fish in my hse. In the past i used to go to the zoo every sunday, like i swear i never got bored of the place, i'd wake up at 7 in the mornin shower and wake my parents up by screaming, "I wanna go zoo!" they'd oblige and i'd have a ball of a time. I'd repeat the process the following week. I remember standing nxt to the orang utan enclosure and asking my mum if i was named after "Ah Meng" f.y.i, Mama calls me "Ah Meng". I wasn't btw, but i chose to believe i was, named after an animal instead of the other way round, because to me at that point of time, "Ah Meng" was the coolest thing next to whatever Power Ranger was popular, screw the whole human supremacy shit, i've seen ppl who are dumber than animals, Twinkle would score better in an exam against them. But yea, i guess what i'm really trying to say is that as a kid i didn't have many frens and whenever i went to the zoo on sunday, i'd run by the same enclosure stop there and just stand there looking at "Ah Meng" the animal that shared a name with me. Funny thing is that i never actually took a photo with her, as i grew up i felt that i'd actually outgrown the zoo and forgotten everything about it. Seeing the news now i actually kinda miss the zoo, in fact those countless visits to the zoo made me want to become a vet in the 1st place, so in my humble lil blog, just wanna say thank you to all the animals that made my day every sunday and to "Ah Meng" for just being there.
Sorry guys i assure you the next post will be more human oriented. Out.
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9:11 AM;
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I see you and i raise you one.
Lets see... went to erm... Queensway yesterday and got all my CNY stuff and got a rugby ball =) many cousins = potential rugby team haha. Got myself a new wallet too, it has a picture of a bull on it hehe, gonna use it for new year for all the new cash haha. Saw my dream shoes, the Reebok Pumps but again i had to walk away cause they cost alot and i can't imagine myself asking my folks to buy them for me, somethings i gotta get myself. After CNY maybe... went for dinner after that and Dad got pissed off, don't ask me why i don't know, don't really care, walked back to the carpark in the rain and i had to stop to ask Mum sumtink, Dad was behind and he just shoved me in front... I got super pissed but just walked and didn't care and just walked. Then he brought Emily to buy her clothes at G2000 while i went to F.O.S got home after that and the shouting started, Dad vs Mum. In my freakin room... while i was there and he was shouting as though i wasn't there... complaining that my mum spent alot on the boys and she left the girl alone... i clearly remember the shopkeeper; his fren telling us all that they didn't have a size jeans that could fit my sis... So after the shouting my Dad left, slammed the door and i talked to Mum, just berating Dad, its just unfair.
Fast forward to 2day, went to the temple in the morning, Dad got pissed AGAIN, Mum in a slightly better mood so she went to Spotlight to grab some things and ended up buying alot... so much for some... Dad had another mood swing so he left for home with Shaun and Darnell, leaving me Emily and Mum to shop. After shopping took a cab home, the worst cab ride of my life... the moment the driver started driving, another car cut into his lane and he almost crashed into it. Then the same thing happened along the PIE.... this time the other driver saw him and flipped him the bird... and the cab driver just drove until the driver came beside his car and started to flip him again then cab driver got pissed and started shoutin and cussin in dialect while me, Emily and Mum were in the back thinkin is this guy gonna crash into something? Eventually the guy had to turn into another lane and they parted ways, still the driver had to complain... ok... so while he was complaining he almost hit another car, this one trying to turn out of a junction. I'm just glad to be here alive...
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3:40 PM;
Friday, February 1, 2008
TGIF
Ain't exactly a very nice start of the day for me, Hoe came back so it already wasn't good, top it off with a "debate" over moving benches, i already hate the day. It got better as the day progressed though. She should seriously grow up and no i wasn't being rude, i was stating facts.
Dun wanna say more, cept that i'm glad i got friends in MI who are willing to give hell to Hoe as much as i want to just to see her squirm. 08A3! LOL
After school waited at the stadium for Vans to show... again no show so i left with Kel and Zul, walked to the bus stop and stoned there, dunno why, i saw Vans so i asked for the namelist and he said he'd call to tell me the names and everything so that done i turned back and lost Zul, he boarded the bus already, then me and Kel took a bus to Bukit Batok MRT station and took the train to Outram, left Kel on the train cause he was going to meet his sis then went to Kovan, slept in the train and woke up dizzy... came out of the station and realised it was raining VERY heavily... there wasn't a bus so i had to walk... i reached there totally drenched... this is the part where i'm so grateful to Uncle Boon and Tua Yee, the moment i reached there dripping with water they immediately gave me dry clothes to wear, it was then i fully realised that they really loved me, these were the ppl that saw me grow up, they were there to witness my every fall and pick me up and to celebrate with me when i accomplished something, and when i came unannounced at their doorstep dripping water all over the clean dry floor. They didn't even scold me when i just dumped my wet schoolbag in the middle of the living room when i went to change my clothes and when i came out it was already placed for me in a corner where it could dry... i feel so ungrateful suddenly... they even cooked a bowl of noodles for me, knowing fully well i'd skip my lunch cause i was lazy to buy something to eat before i reached there... and they did all that for me without a single complaint, before i left they even gave me stuff to bring home to eat... Yes i know this post is a lil emo but nt the point, i should do something to give back to all that Tua Yee, Mama and Uncle Boon have given me.
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7:51 PM;
